Pre-show fretting

Holy balls. I can't believe I am performing in two weeks on this subject material. It's sort of surreal. People don't perform about rape. Let alone joke about it like I am planning to do in my performance. omg. omg. Maybe I am totally cray-cray. But Martha and the rest of the class think the piece is really strong so I have to forge ahead. My main concern is that people will think it's my fault and that I am a victim who is just messed up. Or an angry man hating bitch who is using her audience to cathart and rage. But I am an artist and I am trying to make good art. My subject matter just happens to be rape.